I think life is funny sometimes. My last post was probably the most negative thing I have ever written yet somehow I’ve gotten my best day for “follows” from wordpress and gained 5 more followers. I don’t think it’s because people want me to keep writing negative posts. In fact, the post starts out negative and then I spin into something positive. What I learned here is that people want to read something real, honest and personal which I admit I don’t do that often on this blog.
So to all of my followers and those who liked my last post or other posts before, thank you for listening and understanding. Because of you, I will keep on keepin’ on!
Usually every Mondays, I have Motivational Mondays and every Friday I have Instagram Fridays. I like writing this blog but lately I’ve been going through a lot on my mind when it comes to my job search looking for work as an art teacher. On a personal note, I’m going through some financial difficulties which mostly hails from not being called often to substitute teach. This has bought great stress to me and with encouragement from friends and loved ones, I’m trying to stay more positive and take steps to ease the burden of my current situation.
Another thing that added to my stress was me putting pressure on myself after an interview for a long-term sub position for an elementary art teacher. I convinced myself that I HAD TO HAVE the job to the point that because I wanted it so much that I started to believe the universe wouldn’t give it to me. When I was at the interview, I couldn’t tell what the vibe was. It was just neutral. Nothing bad happened but nothing amazing happened either. In fact, I haven’t even heard back but I’m praying hard each and everyday to get myself out of a hole I dug myself in.
To be honest, I probably haven’t been following my own advice from my Motivational Mondays post. While I won’t stop posting Motivational Mondays, I need to learn to practice what I preach.
The only way I can be in the right state of mind is to remind myself of all of the great things I do have: God, friends, family, fiancé, my health etc. I am eternally grateful for all of those things. When I have such an amazing support system like my family, friends, fiancé, God etc, then I really have no reason to worry.
I am working on this everyday. I thank all of you for taking the time to read this.